The Chaos I Couldn’t Escape
There was a time in my life when every day felt like a battle I was losing. My home had holes in the walls. Furniture was flipped. Screaming matches. Doors slammed. My son was hurting, my daughters were trying to cope, and I was barely keeping it together.
I used to drink just to numb it all away—wine to sleep, coffee to wake up, repeat. I’d sit in my car after a school meeting, shaking and crying, wondering how the hell I was supposed to survive another day like this. My nervous system was fried. Every sound made me jump. Every meltdown felt like the world was collapsing.
But here’s the truth: as an autism mom, you don’t get to fall apart. We push through. We carry the weight. Until one day, you break.
That was me—broken. And I refused to let that be the story my kids remembered.
If you’re reading this thinking, ‘That’s my life right now,’ you’re not alone.
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The Turning Point I Didn’t Expect
I didn’t believe in “magic cures.” I still don’t. But I reached a point where the stress, the sleepless nights, and the emotional exhaustion were so heavy that I was willing to try anything to feel human again.
That’s when I found hemp.
Not THC. Not something that would make me high. Just hemp-derived CBD that supports your body’s natural stress response system. I wasn’t looking to escape my life—I wanted to handle it without screaming, without breaking, and without drowning in guilt.
So I started small. One jelly before bed. Then slowly during the day when my chest felt tight and my mind couldn’t stop racing.
And little by little… something shifted.
How Hemp Changed My Nervous System
Here’s what no one told me, until I started to research more: your body actually has a system built to regulate stress—it’s called the endocannabinoid system. And when you’re in constant fight-or-flight mode like so many autism moms are, that system can’t keep up.
Hemp interacts with that system like a calming friend putting a hand on your shoulder saying, “You can breathe now.”
Within the first week:
- I slept through the night for the first time in years. No 3am wakeups with racing mind and restless legs, no lying there replaying every meltdown wondering if I could have done anything different.
- My mind slowed down enough for me to actually hear myself think again.
By week two:
- I wasn’t snapping as much. I could handle IEP meetings without my voice shaking or tears burning behind my eyes.
- When my son flipped furniture, I didn’t spiral into panic. I calmly helped him work through it.
By the first month:
- I realized I was parenting without rage, without that constant knot in my stomach.
- For the first time in a decade, I said to myself, “I feel like me again.”
It’s Not a Cure. It’s a Tool.
Let me be clear—hemp didn’t magically fix everything. It didn’t erase my son’s struggles or make every meltdown disappear.
But it gave me what I desperately needed:
- Rest: Deep, healing sleep that made me functional again.
- Calm: I could finally respond instead of react to chaos.
- Clarity: My brain wasn’t stuck in survival mode 24/7.
And because of that, I became a better mom, advocate, and human.
What You Need to Know Before Trying Hemp
Before you run out and grab anything labeled “CBD,” here’s what I learned the hard way:
- Start Low and Go Slow – Everyone’s body responds differently. Start with the smallest dose and gradually increase until you find what works.
- Look for USDA Certified Organic – Quality matters. You want clean, third-party-tested hemp with no pesticides or junk additives.
- It’s Legal and Won’t Make You High – Hemp-derived CBD has no psychoactive effects. You stay clear-headed and in control.
- Track Your Changes – Journal your sleep, mood, and stress levels to see the shifts over time. They will be small and you probably won’t notice.
It’s Helping My Kids Too
What shocked me even more was how much it helped my son.
This child who used to rage, scream, threaten us, and punch walls now has moments of peace. He can focus better. His transitions to school aren’t as explosive and he’s able to regulate when overstimulation sets in. Even our therapist asked ‘what’s happening’ after he was attentive, made eye contact and shared in a session. It was beautiful!
I’m not saying it fixed everything—because nothing can. But it’s one of the few tools that actually moved the needle for his emotional regulation.
And watching your child finally find a moment of calm? There’s no feeling like it.
If you want to know the full story of how we got from furniture-flipping meltdowns to finally finding calm, I wrote it all down for you here:
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From Numb to Alive Again
I used to numb out just to survive. Glass after glass of wine, pretending I was fine, putting on the brave face at school meetings.
Now? I don’t need to numb.
I can feel it all—the stress, the joy, the heartbreak—and I can handle it.
Hemp gave me back my breath, my presence, and my fight.
If you’re an autism mom who feels like your nervous system is hanging by a thread, know this: you’re not broken. You just need support—real, natural support that works with your body, not against it.
Want to Learn More?
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Because you deserve calm, and you don’t have to figure this out alone.
